"When the storms are raging all around me. You are the peace that calms my troubled seas. And when the cares of this world darken my day, You are the light that shines and shows me the way. Oh the beauty of your Majesty! On the cross you showed Your love for me!"

I woke up this morning to the sounds of rain dripping outside of my window. The sky was dreary and dark. I've thought a lot lately about how this could be what my outlook on life looks like. My plans seem to be continually changing for me, and I really don't have any control over it. Who knows what the next steps in my life are going to look like. I recently found out that the team going to Taiwan will not leave the States until the end of July. I also found out that this means that I may have to miss Julie's wedding. By the time that I found out about the time change in the trip, it was too late for me to get the job that I had originally lined up for the summer. And to add to all of that, there is still the chance that I won't even be accepted to the program at all. For awhile it was easy for me to give into the "what if's" and question whether or not God really knows what He is doing here. Missing Julie's wedding is like missing my sister's wedding. I mean even my Dad is performing the ceremony!

However...No matter what I am feeling right now, I can look back and see that every time the future looked bleak or scary, God always pulled through on His end. There has never been a wasted hard time that I have gone through. I can trust that God will remain faithful to His promise to complete the good work that He began in me. It may be crazy to say this, and I'm really not asking God to put me through any more trying times, but I am thankful for the hard things that God has guided me through, so that I can walk through the next tough spot and say "yes, I know He has been faithful, and I trust Him to be faithful again."

With graduation in less than two weeks and a whole lot of changes and uncertainties in front of me, and I am super glad that I have a God that loves me enough to die on the cross for me. If He loves me that much, I'm pretty sure that He loves me enough to take care of all of the little details of my life.